12 weeks, just about

So, many of you have heard, we are expecting again. I will be 12 weeks on Fri., tomorrow.

Pregnany so far:

So, I've gone through the extremely tired phase, and easing into being pregnant in terms of what to do with my brain, after having our last pregnancy end at 15 weeks. I have now landed in a excited frame of mind. The major nauseousness I think is behind me, although I still feel nauseous from time to time. Breakfast is very important...eat in the morning. Yeah.

When we first told Sarah she was hesitant and it was just as she was getting better from her Dec. sickness. A few days later she asked me, "Do you think we'll have to do another balloon?" and then the next day, "Do you think we'll have to make another scrapbook?" (both things we did to remember Karina...letting a helium balloon go off into the air at her memorial and making a scrapbook). I told her I we don't know, but I really hope we don't have to do those things and I also explained people make scrapbooks for many reasons...even to celebrate people who are living. We've talked about how we are praying that the baby will be healthy and grow to full newborn size and be born then, so we can meet him/her but that if that doesn't happen, God will continue to take care of us.

Sarah has seemed to be excited and very giggly lately and I wonder how much of that is her excitement about a new sibling. She often says "3 people are dancing" or baking or skating, whatever we are doing, meaning me, her and the baby.
She also loves to put together gifts, almost daily, and now is giving Andy and I some gifts that are 'for the baby' (from her old baby toys and books).

We already had our first midwife appt. on Dec.23rd, making it an epic day of driving to Kelowna for the appointment, then to Abbotsford for Christmas. The midwife was very understanding and showed an appropriate reponse when she heard of our loss...there are a few midwives there, so we'll alternate between two or so of them. We'd never met this midwife before.

I've also gone through a bit of food craving stuff. One craving was samosas, encouraged by Heidi's blog, I think. We've learned how to make them which is wonderful and make them not too spicy so Sarah enjoys them too. I do not enjoy the smell of oil heating up in the cast iron and eating greens I do, but not the full serving I used too. I like mixing them in with other things (kale in spaghetti sauce, for example).
I've had itchy legs too and my bladder is definately smaller (or pushed on or something), making my nightly bathroom trips double from 2 times to 4 times a night.

I'm definately being more cautious and have a few boundaries in place like not pulling Sarah on the tobaggan uphill. Sarah's been enjoying some more adrenaline rush-like runs on the togaggan. We climb up to the top of a hill or snowbank and I send her down. Yesterday we were polar bears and we used the sled for 'the first time,' since we're bears.'

I've trimmed back how long we stay in town too. We were going to two programs a trip, but now it's mainly "Strong Start". I think Sarah enjoys that the most. It's more structured and she's been getting really excited about going lately, including crying one day when I told her it wasn't in the plan to go.

I've been really tired, as I've had trouble sleeping at night...sometimes I can't get comfortable, I'll just lay there awake...and I'll be dizzy sometimes during the day too. Dizziness is what happens to me when I'm too tired.

Anyway, we went ice skating at the arena yesterday and today I need to do some housework as we have a little friend (4 years old) coming for a visit tomorrow...and her Mom and one month old baby brother. The weather forcast said, "freezing fog" here this morning.

Been resting and napping too and some reading too.

I've already grown too, of course, in size and am in some maternity clothes already.